Torn Between Two Places

I have a ticket for home on July 1, I cannot believe how quickly time goes. I will be home for the summer to work as a substitute at Delrey, and spend time with family and friends, which I am truly looking forward to! I believe God is calling me to come back at the end of the summer.

It is difficult to know that I am leaving and there is still so much work to be done. These past few weeks I've been working in administration for Hope Haven, organizing various projects and helping to organize a distribution in El Salvador. There is also a team from Adventures In Missions (the group I went to Nicaragua with) here for the summer and I have been hosting them and getting them settled in. They have their own transportation and a contact in Xenacoj, where they are living, so they are now pretty much self-sufficient.

The two other volunteers that were here during the beginning of my trip here and I are working on starting a small Non-Profit organization called Small Change 4 Big Change. What we were noticing was that a huge need that could change the dynamic of a family or a person is education. There is a lack of it here; many students drop out around 7th grade because they begin secondary school and the costs inscrease. We were meeting and in contact with various people who were intereted in sponsoring these students, and we wanted to provide a way for them to do so. It is a slow and detailed process, but have been making progress and are taking all of the steps so that when we three return in a couple months, we can begin a sponsorship program for Xenacoj.

I've been struggling lately with trusting in God's plan, especially when it seems as though you cannot see where you're going. It could be because, in all honestly, I haven't been spending as much time with the Lord as I should. Some of that is due to my own spiritual laziness, some because of busyness. But I can feel the difference in my heart when I distance myself from Him, and all of the sudden fear and unrest become a daily struggle. Therefore today, I will be sitting down to spend some time in prayer and meditation with God. Why is it that at times it is difficult to simply let everything go and follow His Holy Spirit? I get distracted, and I end up focusing my heart on other things. But our relationship with Him is not based on our feelings, but rather our choices; in choosing to sit down with Him and share all, in choosing His way above all other ways.

Please continue to pray for me, and the work here, through these next 3 weeks.